I've been unemployed since I quit my job in April 2018 to focus on my mental health. Three months later, I got really, really sick. I'm not going to get into the details of it - I already have on this blog - but it was a really dark time in my life. It was probably the longest I'd gone without writing, too.
But things started to look up in Spring 2021. I thought I could potentially handle a part-time job or maybe a full-time remote job (so I could work from my bed). I started job hunting. Sent out over 300 resumes in two months.
No one wanted to hire me. Probably due to the gap in my resume. I changed it, added that there was a gap due to health reasons and that I was ready to get back into the workforce. Still, no bites. I ended up doing a couple interviews but they didn't pan out, even though I was told I was an "excellent' and 'wonderful' candidate.
I took the summer off from job hunting as my partner is a teacher and we spent the summer together. It seemed like a good opportunity.
I started the job hunt again in the first week of September. I sent out abut 20 resumes. By this point, I was feeling dejected and unwanted.
I talked with my partner about it, and we realized that if I wrote full-time, nothing would really change from our current situation.
So, Monday, September 13th, 2021, I made the official decision to quit job hunting and start writing full-time. It's barely been a week and I've had so many wonderful opportunities come my way.
It feels like the universe is out there shouting, "YES, GET IT, ENBY!" and rooting me on. I know it won't always feel this way. But I'm grateful. I have the support of my loved ones and my writing communities. I am taking advantage of this opportunity to the fullest.
Last week, I won two scholarships. One for a writer's retreat and one for a writer's course on revising.
Last week, I started something that may turn into a small business.
Last week, @DestinyRaeSmith and I came up with a brilliant idea.
I've got this.
I refuse to let ANYONE down, let alone myself. I'm going to keep working as hard as I possibly can in these uncertain times. And I'm determined to make this work.
So, writing and writing-related things are now my full-time job, and I have to say... it feels really good.
I know not everyone is afforded this opportunity, and I am truly heartbroken, because for the first time in my life, things feel right. I have a loving partner, a wonderful fam, ride-or-die friends, and writing communities that bring me joy.
For the first time in y life, I know I'm going to be okay.